If you ever thought you had commitment issues… this is for you 😉
In the past years as I’ve been traveling to different places, settling for a bit and then gathering my things to take off again, I wondered if there was something in me that was afraid to stay. Was there something great for me where I was but some part of me felt like I didn’t deserve it? Was I just making things more difficult for myself by not following the norm?
Recently in meditation I was shown a thought or belief I didn’t know I had, but in unconscious ways had been acting on. Since I’m a student and teacher of yoga, my daily practice is super important and balancing for me. But there are times when I miss a day, or two, or maybe don’t get as much time in, and thoughts like “I won’t be as insightful today” or “I’ll have a harder time being patient” come up, which leave me feeling this added guilt throughout the day.
It’s like I have to make up for the fact that I didn’t dedicate as much time as I would’ve liked to do my routine. And as a result, I don’t feel as deserving of happiness, of receiving other people’s patience, of hearing the guidance of my higher self, essentially, of being worthy of my connection with source.
I took myself on a little trip today. On the way back listening to Lisa Nichols’ audio book “Abundance Now”, I got to the point where she talked about celebrating ourselves for our wins – big and small.
I realized there are a handful of things I’ve done lately or I continue to do that are pending my intentional celebration! My life has been transforming drastically in the past few years.
Normally, this weekend or a time close to it, I would be on a snowboarding trip. For the past ten years, every winter I would go snowboarding at LEAST once. I love it. It’s offered me so much fun and freedom.
The precarious chair lift photo.
Life isn’t going to stop throwing all types of things at us. It’s meant to stir up the whole spectrum of human emotions. …we must learn how to sit with ourselves and the experience as it’s happening.
It’s often our resistance to feeling certain emotions which actually binds us and inhibits our growth.
Read here about some life lessons I’ve learned from my cat.
This is a time of drastic transformation. There is infinite potential to transform our world in a positive trajectory, with love and optimism and healing in our hearts. And there is the same amount of potential to continue a spiral into darkness and separation. Where energy goes, energy grows. We have the choice.
We are brilliant. We shine as individuals and we thrive in our communities. We deserve to continue to shine, and we must want the same for all of our brothers and sisters. So especially in this time of tension and conflict, I ask of you, my brother and sister warriors, turn in. Remember the goal you want to accomplish, and unleash your energy there.